Hi! I am Dan McGinley. I am a Registered Nurse by trade and Holistic Health Coach. I am a Nutrition and Fitness enthusiast and practitioner. I am a Parent, Martial Artists, Healer, Student, Guide, Mentor, and Resource. I am Spiritually Awake and my Soul Mission is to assist others in obtaining Optimal Health and Spiritual Awareness.
I created Auxano-Aletheia to provide accurate knowledge, resources, intuitive and informed opinions on various health, wellness and spiritual topics. I have dedicated my life to the pursuit and maintenance of harmonious health practices as well as the dissemination and teaching of those practices to others. The need has never been greater for the people to take back control of their health and lives. Who I am is less intriguing than how I arrived here and why I do this?
I spent eight years as Registered Nurse. I had the privilege of working in many diverse specialties and developed many useful skills. I had a comfy stable income, job security, benefits and etc. I was raising a five-year old boy independently and had much to be grateful for. I felt guilty for wanting more for myself and child. I knew something was missing but had no idea what? I theorized as to the reasons for my feeling of lack and apathy. I told myself I was simply lonely. My diet was sub-optimal. My training (exercise) was inconsistent. It’s normal, everyone feels this way sometimes. Everyone hates their job sometimes. I have too much on my plate. I am a single parent and need to sacrifice for my child.
I did not realize it at the time but I was about to undergo a massive life change. Like most of us I was ignoring my inner voice. I was not myself without realizing it. I was irritable most of the time. I could not get to the gym as I once did. I would crave garbage food. I was fatigued, unmotivated and often without joy. I had to smoke cigarettes and failed at quitting multiple times. I was filling my “free” time with mindless entertainment. I was self-medicating and suffering from substance abuse. I knew better than most, exactly what to do. I had done it many times before but things simply didn’t feel the same as they once did. As I continued to struggle with motivation and discipline I devalued myself with each failure. My confidence slowly diminished. I concluded I must have depression. Meanwhile, if asked “How are you doing?”. My typical response was “I’m fine, I’m good, life is great!”.
I kept thinking to myself What was so different at times in my life when I trained hard, had massive energy, engaged my passions and was generally happy. When I was in college or the birth of my child for example. Was I simply getting old? Was it time to give in to the inevitable “Dad Bod”? Maybe go back to school and get a more advanced Degree? Make more money? Settle down with a “nice” girl? I certainly considered all these options yet none felt right. I tried all the standard defensive mechanisms. Intellectualized, Rationalized and bullshitted myself. None brought long-term relief. I did not see it at the time but I was not listening to my Soul. All the options I considered were not of my heart but of a mind filled with fear and the voices of others.
One morning I was dropping my Son off at Pre-K. He was crying and verbalizing his intense hatred for school. He pleaded “Why do I have to go to school Daddy?”. I replied with the understanding every answer would be followed with a “but why?” response. “Because Daddy has to go to work, we need to get money so we can have a place to live and food on the table”. Realizing his questions were not yielding the answers he was hoping for, he proclaimed “But I want to stay with you!” This was our typical morning and when I would attempt to leave he would cling to me. I found myself growing increasingly frustrated and fearful I would be late for work. I told him sternly “You need to get used to school because it’s not going anywhere! You will be in school for most of your life and after that you will have to work too!”. He held me and sobbed as if it was our last embrace. It always pained me to leave him and resume my commute to a job that was no longer making me happy. I sat in my Car, alone with my thoughts and emotions. Honestly reflecting on my life.
I realized some hard truths about my life. First, I had lost my passion for my work and my life. The first thought we have is usually the most honest. This is why psychoanalytical tools often instruct you to write down the immediate answer to a probing question. The answer has not yet had time to be altered and reformatted by our prefrontal cortex. I had simply been working for a paycheck. I no longer felt that I embodied the higher virtues of being a Nurse. To be clear, I have the utmost respect for Nurses and consider my experience as a RN to be invaluable. I simply adopted a new belief and realized their was a better approach to healing people. Second, my child and I were going to spend the best hours of the day for the rest of our lives in the presence of other people. I did not have the freedom of choice. I needed him at school for long hours to maintain a lifestyle that was unfulfilling to me. Third, I was never going to make a significant impact or have the resources needed to do all things I wanted for myself and my child. I clearly saw the extent in which I had no control and power in my life. I dwelled on these realities and found this unacceptable and painful. This lead me to the final most important truth. If I wanted my life to change then I had to change!
Thus the transformation that brought me here to you had begun. One can not give what one does not have. I focused on my growth and healing. Began researching and expanding my Knowledge. Developing new practices. I had to embody the notion of Holistic Health. In that process I developed a Program. A program that has improved my life on all levels. A program I wish to share with you.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Maryanne Williamson