Gratitude rarely comes with ease. Letting you go is the hardest thing I have ever done. It is not easy being your reflection. I suspect, inversely, it was not easy being mine either. I wish I had made things easier on you. I wish I had done somethings differently. I have regrets. Regrets I have accepted.
It irritates me, seeing all the articles with titles stating things like “The Man Who Loves You Will Always Pursue You” or “The Person Who Loves You Will do these 8 things” . What a crock of shit. There are plenty of relationship coaches out there speaking of communication and compromise. Perhaps that works for some but that is not the type of love we have chosen. No, few have the perseverance and resolve for such love. Few have the self-awareness and emotional grit. Few choose such a journey. Perhaps even fewer succeed.
It is still not clear to me why we would choose this. What has been the purpose of it all? Perhaps it was simply a means teach ourselves greater Self-love. Perhaps it a means to better understand ourselves. Perhaps, it was a means to galvanize greater spiritual healing. Perhaps it was simply a means to gain a greater understanding of love, codependency, and the true nature of men and women. Perhaps we will someday reach Union. Perhaps it is all those things and more. I would like to believe that, but I no longer believe in fairy tales. I no longer cling to expectation.
The truth is no Man will “Always” pursue you. There are no Romeos or Juliet’s. There is no Prince Charming or Cinderella. There are just flawed Human Beings. There is just selfish Love. The type of love that transforms us. The type of love that molds and shapes us into something beyond our former selves. The type of love that reconciles our past mistakes.
The truth is, we are not like the others. As much as we wish to be, we never will be. This type of love can not be understood by most. It is not the type of love given away lightly. It is not the type of love you will read about in an eye catching article. Oh no, this type love is earned through countless tears. This type of love would destroy most people. This type of love is crystalized in our very Being. . That is why we chose this, to become love itself.