Following over a week extreme fatigue which I undoubtedly attribute to the Kundalini activation. I hit threshold the other night. I just wanted to sleep at night and be alert in the daytime. Is it too much to ask? I slept over 30 plus hours straight over the last few days. Getting up for very short periods to eat, drink etc. During this sleep I had what I can only describe as a productive lucid dream. I was dreaming where I was watching myself on my computer and I was educating myself. I was informing myself of all my “blockages” or obstructions to manifesting and solving all my problems. I had given myself a cheat sheet essentially. I told myself about some deep rooted feelings of inadequacy and self-denial. I explained exactly why my Son and I were triggering each other and provided advice how to resolve it. Finally I reminded myself why we need sleep.
Human Beings require substantial sleep compared to other mammals comparatively. There are many reasons but the common accepted reason is that the Brain needs this time to integrate and process all the stimulation throughout the day. Therefore, when your mind is being put in the blender everyday as it is during the Awakening/ Kundlaini Surge it is a lot to process. Furthermore, you are now perceiving stimulus that you once where not. Your six sense/ third eye is active and it is that much more to integrate. Essentially, Your Brain is rebuilding a new platform and just as it does, you shift once more and the process continues. So, relax and enjoy the sleep. You are integrating super-powers such as sight beyond sight, telepathy and psychic connections. Be grateful and do not squander them.
Many discuss Kundalini symptoms and the adrenal glands etc. I am not debating this and it makes scientific sense to me. However I cant help notice a correlation between fatigue and heart break/ depression. We all can relate to the need for increased sleep when we are grieving. I see now this is my ultimate grief. The dark night of my Soul. It is indescribable the pain and loss. It takes away all those old coping mechanisms and forces you into a dark corner. A dark place where only two things remain, faith and false promise. The ego promises to end it all. To return to it and everything will be ok.The worst part is this, it is right, for a time it will be better. You will return to your comfort zone and years from now looking back you will wonder, what if? What if I just stuck it out a little longer? What if I overcame my darkest hour? What would happen? Where would I be now?
I choose Faith. Like all Greif, at some point you just decide to end it. You make the choice that you are done. You are no longer going to wallow. The answers are within you, always. Like all things in this life there is a choice to be made. Faith is a sense of knowing this will end someday and I will be Stronger for having gone through it.
Love and Empathy,