Those of you following my Blogs are well aware of the recent Kundalini Energy Surge I have been contending with. I have had waves of Kundalini since my Spiritual Awakening. The last few days it has gotten extreme and is paired with an intermittent Heart Chakra/ intense never before felt, Love Energy leading to/ facilitating emotional healing. I believe to understand the reasons for this in 3D/ Earthly events attributing it to what I presently believe is a Twin Flame Dynamic/ progression to Union.
I will briefly recap this Kundalini experience. Basically my body is a wreck. I have so little energy and drive. I nap often during the day and have insomnia at night, my food cravings/ diet are all jacked up. I am normally active and haven’t exercised in days. I feel chills, aches, and occasionally get these intense random urges to lie down and contract/ extend / convulse until it passes. These are common Kundalini symptoms and the only difference from my previous Kundalini activation is the intense sexual nature and heart chakra opening. I thought it was just going to run its coarse. I suspected it just needed to heal me physically/ emotionally in some way and to allow this process to unfold without conscious intervention. I discovered recently that there is a process/ purpose here that I need to engage and will openly share with you. There are multiple synchronicities and intuitive feeling that lead me to this insight.
As I alluded to in my previous Kundalini update I was attempting to release/ alleviate this energy via masturbation. Yes, I said it and it was working for a time. There is no beating around the bush (No Pun intended) here. Let’s face it honestly, we all do it and there is no reason to be shameful. Since my Spiritual Awakening/ last Kundalini exacerbation I can say honestly that desire or urge to masturbate or have sex was zero. I was like an elderly monk in this sense. Suddenly, I have the hormones of a 13 year old boy. I am just going to be frank when I say that that I recently, naturally/ intuitively began practicing Tantra. Meaning I would get to the point of ejaculation and back off naturally. May sound crazy to most and believe me when I say my words shock me too. It is true, I just feel like it is what I must do and this is with little to no previous knowledge regarding Tantra practices.
Synchronicity, true to the concept of Mirroring, My Twin was alluding to her own sexual exploration/ awakening weeks ago and again very recently. Not directly to me mind you as we have had little 3D interaction thus far, via her own platform. She is far less direct/ more subtle than I am but I now understand what she is talking about. To be honest, when she mentioned it the first time I was slightly confused. My ego wanted to attribute it to my own sexual energy/ prowess somehow influencing her. This is not the case as our energy, although it can be influenced by others is ultimately ours to explore. Other than her leading the way and me subconsciously following suite there are other signs/ synchronicity. The consistent Angel numbers telling me to essentially get my ass to work on my Soul Mission/ Projects and this counter feeling of fatigue/ lethargy. So I asked; Help me find a way out of this fatigue and give me focus. Immediately after I came across a YouTube video (DNA Activation) Transforming Sexual Energy into Spiritual Energy. It was on point to say the least.
My objective is to explore and better understand the lessons of this energy. The unique insights it has on my own sexual power/ healing. To transform it into much needed focus, energy and motivation to complete my day to day tasks moving me forward on my Soul Mission. To be quit honest I have no experience in this particular area but then again, when it comes to my unique internal energy, who does. Like all things I will find guidance. The plan so far is to abstain from masturbation/ and or ejaculation so help me God. Allow the energy to build up as it is sure to do. Then hold it and meditate as I would any emotional transformation. I feel this is going to lead to some challenging sexual healing (No Pun) but like all healing will be followed by massive self-love (again No Pun), motivation, focus and a much needed boost in my daily life.
Any experience or advice on this topic is welcome.
Love and Empathy,