I have often referred to African Proverb “if there is no enemy within then the enemy without can do you know harm”. Here is what that Proverb truly means.
The purpose of Awakening or Enlightenment (a term I do not care for due to the inference of superiority) is healing. It allows the individual to truly heal themselves so they may be given the opportunity to heal others. The way in which these light workers or Indigos go about this varies. My mission is direct in nature. I have always been a healer. As a Registered Nurse I worked from ER to ICU, Pediatric to Adults. I can proudly say I have healed many people. The hardest person to heal was myself. I left Nursing and became a Holistic Health Coach because I began to realize my potential and the potential of all humanity. I wanted to embody Holistic health and all that entailed. Be careful what you wish for. I underwent a Spiritual Awakening during the process of self-healing. I was developing myself and my program without the intention to Awaken and Bam. Suddenly I am seeing numbers, freaky dream, paranormal experiences etc. I learned what true Healing and Holistic Health was! This is bringing my darkness to the light so others may find the courage to do the same.
There are many issues with the current medical system and Health/ Wellness industry. The current recidivism for addicts is atrocious. The biggest of them is they are failing to deliver. I could go on for all the reasons this occurs but I wont. You can research the topic yourself if so inclined. Generally speaking they care more about profits and they skim the surface while ignoring the underlying problem. I do not. I had to go deep inside myself to cure myself and I suggest others do the same if they hope to survive and truly live.
I can not sugar coat it and if you are or have been an addict then you can relate. Addiction comes in many forms. Food, gambling, social media, porn etc. Any behavior that increases or augments the release of dopamine has the potential to be addictive. I hate to minimize or compare one persons suffering for another but I can say from experience that it was a lot easier to stop watching Porn than it was to stop smoking Heroin.
Yes I was a closet addict. I started doing pills with my ex when she started doing pills. This was way for her to control and manipulate me in a sense or so I told myself at the time. Our relationship declined so rapidly it became a way for me to escape reality. When pills became too expensive for her she transitioned to shooting up. It breaks my heart to see her in this state. I never shot up. I never stole narcotics from work. I was “functional” yet I had to smoke that disgusting shit daily. I felt so much shame and punished myself. I fell into the victim mentality which only perpetuated my drug use. I smoked cigarettes for many years too but whatever. I wanted badly to stop but seemed to rationalize and return to it. Eventually I quite. All of It. On my own. No one knew. No Human Support system No Rehab. No Detox. No Methadone. I admit my physical addiction was not on the level of a hardcore user but bet your ass I had withdrawal symptoms. It was not will power or discipline. It was My Spiritual Awakening. This and this alone gave me the strength and understanding to overcome. It was self-love, self-acceptance and self-forgiveness that did it. Meditation, isolation, sitting with my darkness and embracing the pain. Understanding myself. My Soul. My God and My Angels. Many people prescribe to the notion that once an addict then always an addict. This is only true if you allow it to be. This is not one day at a time, one step at a time. This is a lifetime of freedom and self-sovereignty. There is no risk of relapse as I am not the same as I once was. I am spiritual being here to assist others. This is true SELF-MASTERY!
I have no reason to admit this publicly. I am not being shamed to confess. I am not being coerced somehow. This is not part of my healing process although it feels great. I forgave and accepted myself long ago. I have more to loose than gain by this admission. Only one other person knew this truth prior til today. I tell you this so it may help others. Bring them light, love, truth and hope. I believe there is a cure. This cure is love.
If you are struggling with addiction. Please seek medical assistance first. If you are interested in support and behavioral modification techniques then please see my contact page.
With Love and Empathy
I am Dan McGinley RN BSN